HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIALEEEEE!!!
isnt 16th birthday really very sweet! :DDD
March 23, 2008
March 22, 2008
I was just reading jeanne's blog.
and everything came crashing down..
the past few weeks and month i've been trying to delude myself, that life is all happy and fine
that training is fine, that we are going to work hard and do fine for comps
but it just was spelled out so clearly today
so brutally real and clear
theres 3 weeks left to comps. where are we now? can we even jie a tao confidently without failing?
can i?
such a loser. such a disgrace. to think i even competed last year, i am supposed to be better and aiming for indivs this year
but no i dont even have my tao. my dong zuos are even worse than what i had last year
and training is just morphing into such a big monstrous nightmare.
i dread going for training everyday.
i dread dealing with the fact that we suck, that we are such a disappointment to the seniors
i dread trying to change my tao and the juniors tao because it just never ever does change no matter how hard i've tried
and its to the point im already giving up trying
its so painfully frustrating!
ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!
i miss miss miss sji night trainings
we trained so much harder and yet had so much more fun and laughter
we trained hard together, we played hard together, we did stupid things together, we slept in class the next day together, we all failed one test or another together.
i miss wang.
i miss his scary prescence that pushed us to train harder. i miss his morbid ways of changing our dong zuos, like sticking the broom on the tramp. i miss his morbid punishments if we failed our tao, like making fongyi stand on the pommel.
im so sorry juniors. especially c div
that im such a lousy senior. that i am so not an inspiration that jeanne and jiayi and olly and yining were. that im not a supersenior to save the world when things go wrong.
that our batch is so lousy
we dont even have a happy team
how i wish i could turn back time.
when i could have put in more effort to make our team a team
when amanda and sianglin could have been as happy as they are now, and bond with the rest of us right from the start
when rina never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever got injured so i would still have my pillar of strength to carry on
when shihui never lost her hope to strive for comps
when sammie didnt ditch training for psl.
i feel so helpless.
Sorry juniors. you deserve so much better.
I know that you all are so stressed to keep up to our expectations.
and its unfair for us to expect it of you when you all werent given the conditions we had
We know that you all are trying.
jiayou jiayou. Be brave and play on the tramp more (after training). it helps.
And sorry seniors for being such a lousy junior.
sorry for all the disappointment
sorry for not meeting up to expectations
sorry for not sustaining the standard and reputation you all worked so hard for
okay its finally all out
i know i shouldnt whine and apologise here cos it doesnt help at all and saying sorry doesnt make things work again
but i just needed an outlet.
okay juniors lets all continue to work hard
so that even when we lose we can say that we've tried our best, and they were just plain better than us.
and lets just really have fun and enjoy what we do and enjoy each other's company
because ultimately the medals dont matter. its just metal.
its the precious experience and bonds forged thats so so priceless.
and everything came crashing down..
the past few weeks and month i've been trying to delude myself, that life is all happy and fine
that training is fine, that we are going to work hard and do fine for comps
but it just was spelled out so clearly today
so brutally real and clear
theres 3 weeks left to comps. where are we now? can we even jie a tao confidently without failing?
can i?
such a loser. such a disgrace. to think i even competed last year, i am supposed to be better and aiming for indivs this year
but no i dont even have my tao. my dong zuos are even worse than what i had last year
and training is just morphing into such a big monstrous nightmare.
i dread going for training everyday.
i dread dealing with the fact that we suck, that we are such a disappointment to the seniors
i dread trying to change my tao and the juniors tao because it just never ever does change no matter how hard i've tried
and its to the point im already giving up trying
its so painfully frustrating!
ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!
i miss miss miss sji night trainings
we trained so much harder and yet had so much more fun and laughter
we trained hard together, we played hard together, we did stupid things together, we slept in class the next day together, we all failed one test or another together.
i miss wang.
i miss his scary prescence that pushed us to train harder. i miss his morbid ways of changing our dong zuos, like sticking the broom on the tramp. i miss his morbid punishments if we failed our tao, like making fongyi stand on the pommel.
im so sorry juniors. especially c div
that im such a lousy senior. that i am so not an inspiration that jeanne and jiayi and olly and yining were. that im not a supersenior to save the world when things go wrong.
that our batch is so lousy
we dont even have a happy team
how i wish i could turn back time.
when i could have put in more effort to make our team a team
when amanda and sianglin could have been as happy as they are now, and bond with the rest of us right from the start
when rina never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever got injured so i would still have my pillar of strength to carry on
when shihui never lost her hope to strive for comps
when sammie didnt ditch training for psl.
i feel so helpless.
Sorry juniors. you deserve so much better.
I know that you all are so stressed to keep up to our expectations.
and its unfair for us to expect it of you when you all werent given the conditions we had
We know that you all are trying.
jiayou jiayou. Be brave and play on the tramp more (after training). it helps.
And sorry seniors for being such a lousy junior.
sorry for all the disappointment
sorry for not meeting up to expectations
sorry for not sustaining the standard and reputation you all worked so hard for
okay its finally all out
i know i shouldnt whine and apologise here cos it doesnt help at all and saying sorry doesnt make things work again
but i just needed an outlet.
okay juniors lets all continue to work hard
so that even when we lose we can say that we've tried our best, and they were just plain better than us.
and lets just really have fun and enjoy what we do and enjoy each other's company
because ultimately the medals dont matter. its just metal.
its the precious experience and bonds forged thats so so priceless.
March 19, 2008
I chanced upon Gurmit small talk today!
i remember i used to loveeeeeeee that showw!!!
hahahaha the kids are all so funny! :DD
This episode was about LOVE OH LOVE! :D
and gurmit singh asked the kids to sing a song for their teacher and say something like
'mushy mushy squishy squishy sushi sushi love!'
hahaha imagine the little kids blurly saying that without knowing what it means! darnnnnnn cuteeeee!!!!!!!!!
haha! :DD
And he asked the kids what it love means! and got some really cute innocent replies!
"sharing and caring..."
"walking together"
"eating..... walking.... playing.... slee...ping... *bursts out into laughter*" tsk the kids this days!
haha!:D
1Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protests, always trusts, always hopes, always peseveres.
<333
oh and chinese was okay! i THINK i can pass :D
i remember i used to loveeeeeeee that showw!!!
hahahaha the kids are all so funny! :DD
This episode was about LOVE OH LOVE! :D
and gurmit singh asked the kids to sing a song for their teacher and say something like
'mushy mushy squishy squishy sushi sushi love!'
hahaha imagine the little kids blurly saying that without knowing what it means! darnnnnnn cuteeeee!!!!!!!!!
haha! :DD
And he asked the kids what it love means! and got some really cute innocent replies!
"sharing and caring..."
"walking together"
"eating..... walking.... playing.... slee...ping... *bursts out into laughter*" tsk the kids this days!
haha!:D
1Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protests, always trusts, always hopes, always peseveres.
<333
oh and chinese was okay! i THINK i can pass :D
March 18, 2008
March 13, 2008
thank you JUNIORSS!! livia! qiao! zoe! minyi! mindy! abby, tessa, cherie, buggy, liting, claudia, jo, grace, vanessa, shaiian!
and THANK YOU TEAMMIES! amandaaaaa! rinaaaaaaa!!!!!! sianglin!!!!!! shihuiiii!!! sammie!!
love you all!
i love the ducky!!!!!!! and the cake!!!!! and the flowers!!! and the puppy!!!!!!!
thank you so much!!! TTDDDD
i went to church after training!
hahaha so i brought my ducky along to see the wide wide world out that
i think it had fun! although it was subjected to much abuse in church!
dont know why guys have violent tendencies to abuse cute balloon ducks!
and i learnt bass today! felt super retarded! but it was really fun! funfun! :DD hahahah
and i watched leap years yesterday!
its super sweeeeet!
though really unrealistic
but but thats what makes it so lovely! and so dreamy =]]
its great to watch this kinda movies once in a while, its good to dream away once in a while.
wong lilin is so pretty! and ananda is so woahhh!
and catherine lim's story is just so good :D
i love catherine lim!
oh heres something i saw at ntuc!!!
its icecream!!! aint it cute!
i shall buy it someday to see what it really looks like :D
and THANK YOU TEAMMIES! amandaaaaa! rinaaaaaaa!!!!!! sianglin!!!!!! shihuiiii!!! sammie!!
love you all!
i love the ducky!!!!!!! and the cake!!!!! and the flowers!!! and the puppy!!!!!!!
thank you so much!!! TTDDDD
i went to church after training!
hahaha so i brought my ducky along to see the wide wide world out that
i think it had fun! although it was subjected to much abuse in church!
dont know why guys have violent tendencies to abuse cute balloon ducks!
and i learnt bass today! felt super retarded! but it was really fun! funfun! :DD hahahah
and i watched leap years yesterday!
its super sweeeeet!
though really unrealistic
but but thats what makes it so lovely! and so dreamy =]]
its great to watch this kinda movies once in a while, its good to dream away once in a while.
wong lilin is so pretty! and ananda is so woahhh!
and catherine lim's story is just so good :D
i love catherine lim!
oh heres something i saw at ntuc!!!
its icecream!!! aint it cute!
i shall buy it someday to see what it really looks like :D
My birthday is overrrr!!!!
haha well nevermind it was a really great 16th birthday!!!
kudos to whoever invented Sweet 16th!
coz my 16th was just super duper sweet!!!!!!
:DDD
Thank you for all the loveliness!!!!
Its the year ive recieved the best presents ever!!
A super duper lovely blogpost! with all the memories that makes me smile! =]]
and a video with so much hardwork put behind it!!! really appreciate it!!
and tiramisuuuu!!!!!!!! *faints in happiness* :DDD
and a longwinded happy random super sweeeeeet card ^^
and a fun day out to the movies!
and a post that hasnt arrived coz the postman is slacking!
and a painstakingly drawn birthday card by none other than liu wenqiang!!! :OO
(HAHA RETARDED)
and.....
of course all the best wishes from so many lovable peopleeeee!!!!!!
H9G!!!! lub lub! :DD
Thank you so much for making this 16th birthday so unforgettable! :DDDDDDDD
YAYNESS!
k now i gotta move on with my life! and start mugging! boo =[
and im sad 12th march is gonna take 1 more year to come =[[[
but nvrmind! ive got enough love to last me through another 365days! :DD
wheeee! happy! :DD
Thank you Lord for bringing me here! and putting all these wonderful people around me!
and thank you Lord for being with me! and loving me just as I am! <333333333
haha well nevermind it was a really great 16th birthday!!!
kudos to whoever invented Sweet 16th!
coz my 16th was just super duper sweet!!!!!!
:DDD
Thank you for all the loveliness!!!!
Its the year ive recieved the best presents ever!!
A super duper lovely blogpost! with all the memories that makes me smile! =]]
and a video with so much hardwork put behind it!!! really appreciate it!!
and tiramisuuuu!!!!!!!! *faints in happiness* :DDD
and a longwinded happy random super sweeeeeet card ^^
and a fun day out to the movies!
and a post that hasnt arrived coz the postman is slacking!
and a painstakingly drawn birthday card by none other than liu wenqiang!!! :OO
(HAHA RETARDED)
and.....
of course all the best wishes from so many lovable peopleeeee!!!!!!
H9G!!!! lub lub! :DD
Thank you so much for making this 16th birthday so unforgettable! :DDDDDDDD
YAYNESS!
k now i gotta move on with my life! and start mugging! boo =[
and im sad 12th march is gonna take 1 more year to come =[[[
but nvrmind! ive got enough love to last me through another 365days! :DD
wheeee! happy! :DD
Thank you Lord for bringing me here! and putting all these wonderful people around me!
and thank you Lord for being with me! and loving me just as I am! <333333333
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