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havent been here so long that my tagboard is flooded by blogshops haha so weird.

Dance night is in ONE DAY! little less than 24 hours actually.
Oh gosh all im feeling is just fear because im not ready for it. D:
Really scared for fusion 2. Its really came a long long way, from being criticised like its worthless, till what we have now, something that we are proud of. Especially for the girls' part, been through storms man. Sighe! its all going to be over soon enough and all i hope now is for us to be able to be comfortable with ourselves, and enjoy the moment on stage performing the piece we own =] I remember the day i got picked to do fusion, I was sooo reluctant. But now at the end of the day, I guess it was a great experience. At least I know its a unique experience that only the fusion girls share, something special that is once in a lifetime, that the others would never know. Learning hiphop and looking like an idiot, stressing over being so sucky at it, stressing over being messy for modern, stressing over partnerwork. Laughing at weisheng when the guys first learnt the lift, his expression of fear is just super duper funny. all of their lameass jokes and funny faces, and retarded fruit basket unite game. memories memories! Fusion has been great, im not regretting it at all. Though im still sad that i dont get to do 'Seduction', but nevermind! Cant have it all. At least i got to know alot of nice people, got to know some lovelies alot more :) , learnt a new genre of dance, battled with the embarrassment to showcase it, and learnt how to work together. Been a great experience despite the immense stress its created along the way :)

Our months of hard work, not forgetting the whole appealing distress and unhappiness, and non-stop dance practices everyday is going to culminate into two nights of adrenaline. Dont really know whether to be sad or happy! I know im going to be very happy once its all over because i'll have my time and freedom back, but it is going to be sad because it will be the end of our journey of dance in MAD. and possibly the end of my role(??? for the lack of a better word) as a dancer. Im still going to dance but it just wont be the same anymore, especially cause being a mugger is the only option for the next few months. and after that, dont know what'll happen. maybe i'll dance outside but there probably wont be a chance to perform anymore.
I know im going to miss dancing, never liked doing anything else as much as this. Im going to miss modern alot alot alot alot alot. Our batch has been through so much, and have been bonded so much more from where we started last year. We had our last lesson together yesterday, almost cried. Im going to miss dancing with everybody :((((
At the end of this road Im really proud of myself, because all I have now as a dancer i have worked for it. Im so glad that by some miracle i was accepted into MAD. It is really amazing because it just so happened to be the only year Mr Dan needed a bigger batch if not i wouldnt have been in MAD, wouldnt have been able to start dancing and love it, or even got the chance to be dance ic. Im thankful for the people who've helped me, the people whove made MAD awesome, thankful for the opportunities.

Today was supposed to be a wonderful day, but it wasnt.
but tomorrow,
TranscenDANCE 2010 will be awesome possum! :)